Unsettled

We are starting to tell some close friends about our plan to adopt through foster care.  Everyone is really upbeat and supportive, which is so helpful.  My parents, on the other hand, are a little more cautiously upbeat.  I totally understand that and I will take whatever support I can get.

I did a little more research into private adoption.  We found an adoption facilitator about an hour away.  It looks like adoptions through her service run $20k to $40k.  Nothing to sneeze at, that's for sure.  On one hand, it is very tempting to spend the money and know (almost) exactly what you will be getting.  On the other, putting so much money on the line when there is still a risk and emotional roller coaster attached is scary.

Every single adoption agency I've looked into has glowing reviews as well as people who absolutely hated them.  I know I should take the reviews with a grain of salt, but it sure makes for a lot of confusion.

Last night, Husband expressed concern at bringing a newborn into our home.  His muscular dystrophy is progressing and he says he feels like a 70-year-old instead of a 38-year-old.  He wants another child but he is worried about the work that it will be and the extra burden it will be on me.  I am trying to put my faith in the Lord that if He will bless us with another child, He will also bless us with the strength to raise him.

Tomorrow is our meeting with the foster agency.  I am so anxious and ready to meet with them!