Recalculating...

You know how when you take a different route than your GPS has advised, it tells you it is "recalculating"?  Well, we are taking a different route to our adoption.

We met with the foster agency (this is not through the county, by the way).  The woman we met with was great and answered all our questions.  Everything was going really great, until we talked about the chance that we would get an infant.

We were told that there are over 400 foster homes in our county and that they would get first "dibs" on an infant.  But even if we did get an infant, chances are high that he or she would be reunited with his/her family.  We started to talk about what kind of kids we could get and the conversation just started to snowball. 

At first we said we wanted a child younger than our youngest (who is 4).  When we were told that wasn't likely unless we took in siblings, we said we could take in two children.  Then we were told if we raised the age we were looking for, we could get placed easier, so we said we might consider a girl if she was 8 or younger and then a toddler or infant (hopefully a boy).  As the conversation continued, I said to myself, "What is happening here?  I want a baby!"

So that night, I thought and I thought.  I didn't say anything to my husband yet because I wanted the foster situation to sink in, to be sure that it was not what I wanted.  The next evening, I told him how I felt and he agreed with me.

So despite the insane costs, we have decided to pursue private infant adoption.  We are going to get a baby!  I am so excited even though it does not seem real yet.